Wow! It has been forever since I have sat down and done a little writing, but today it just had to be done. Now I have no driving force to be blogging today, as I am suffering from an incredible, intense sinus infection that is showing no mercy, but I just miss it. This is my outlet and lets face it, I haven't been writing so you probably can only imagine the craziness that has been going on in my brain.
Now mind you I do have a few other hobbies, like reading and working out, but I miss this. So here I am ranting about not feeling well, and amazingly I am feeling a little bit better. Well except for the fact that my son is attempting to read at the loudest decibel possible about elephants. Here is my thought on that, and it will probably make me look like a bad human being, but I could give a rat's behind about elephants because I have read the book eighty million times. But this is my life.
I have learned over the past few months about myself is that this is my world. The controlled chaos, okay maybe not so controlled, is just what we do right now. I spend all day entertaining, feeding, and chauffeuring my little humans around. There are days I do feel that I just cannot do this much longer. Like seriously, how much can one human take, right? But then again I have learned that I need to be looking for the silver lining in every event that occurs in house, good or bad, so that I can appreciate even the little, but crazy things. Believe me this is a work in progress because currently I am sick and I do not feel like entertaining Ayden all day long, but that is my job to help nurture his creativity and support him in everything he does.
Ugh....this is a lot harder than it sounds, but you know what, I need to remember that I am so lucky to be Ayden and Audrey's mom. Sure some days I feel like I have lost my identity and I am just their personal butler, but then I am humbled quickly when I think of those who long to have these opportunities. That is when I realize that I was chosen to be these little humans momma for a reason. They have so much to teach me, as I do for them. I just pray every night that I don't screw it up when we've had a bad day, but just as a back up plan I have verified that Tricare does cover therapy, so I have covered my bases. :)
Have a fabulous day friends!
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