2 Kids to 1

I feel super guilty writing about this, but after a few days of Audrey at kindergarten I have noticed something...having only one kid around during the day is easy in some regards.  I mean Ayden doesn't keep himself as entertained as well as he does with Audrey around, but he can find things to do independently and I can actually get things done.  Like really done, and the activities we can do together are genuine.  Not that anything I did with two kids wasn't, but I just feel like this is the first time that Ayden and I really have had that time to engage in some conversations.  Of course it was just Ayden and I when Audrey was at preschool, but that was for a short period of time and we did a lot of errands during that time and he was not into talking and learning as much as he is now.

We made jam yesterday and I was just amazed on how intrigued he was on measuring and what the ingredients in the jam were.  And the crazy thing is he can tell me right now which container holds instant pectin and sugar.  It is almost as if the distance from Audrey and the fact that we have more time together, a fire has been ignited.  The kid just floors me.  I knew he was smart, but the fact that he has to practice his letters and numbers the moment we get home after dropping Audrey off at school makes me realize he will just be fine at preschool this year.

But there is this weird guilt I have.  I feel guilty that Audrey is at school working hard, and Ayden and I are off on our adventures.  Whether it is going to the Children's Museum or just staying home and making cookies (it's on the agenda for the next couple days), these are things I used to do with Audrey and Ayden and I sometimes feel guilt.  However to my surprise yesterday she did make the comment when she found out we went to the museum that us going was just fine because she was at school being a big kid.  As long as she continues with this great attitude, I guess I shouldn't feel guilty for doing the activities.  Plus, Ayden and I have to get out of the house because otherwise we may go a little stir crazy.

I will continue to feel a little guilty, but at the same time I love the fact that I can get so much more done and the little trips like going to Target are far easier than with two:)