A Kindergarten Letter

I have totally seen this on social media going around and I have refrained from reading any of them because of all the tears that would fall.  Therefore I am going to be that mom and write my daughter a letter and cry while doing it.

Dear Sweet Audrey,

I can still remember the day you were born.  The fateful day that you made me a mom, and made all my confidence go out the door but made my heart love more than I ever thought possible.  I have always been able to be feel confident in whatever job I have taken on, that was until I became a mom.  You made me a momma and you have helped me grow and discover that we do not have to be the best at everything, however you have a way in making me feel that I do a pretty good job at doing this mom thing.  

Today you will take a walk into school and you will be ready to conquer the world.  With the deep caring for others and fiery passion, you will do well.  I tell myself these things because I have to remember that it will be okay and that you can do all this, however it is my lack of confidence that has me in tears.  Did I prepare you for every situation you will encounter?  Was I too hard on you before you went to bed and will you second guess how much I truly love you?  Deep down I know you will be fine, but why are my insecurities hindering my happiness of letting you go and begin this next chapter in your little life?  

I have complained many days that you and your brother were driving me bonkers, and quite frankly it was probably true, but even though it brought stress at the time, I am no longer going to have two kiddos in my house on a daily basis.  Your little ways of helping will be missed more than either of us know until I experience it.  The house will not be filled with chatter and maybe Ayden and I will be able to decide what to do for the day rather than having our event planner (that would be you) telling us what we should do for our day.  

With that all being said as a former teacher, I now look at the first day of school in a new light.  A light that I am not sure I am ready for, but time has left me no choice.  So Audrey Raschel, you go and enjoy every last minute of kindergarten.  I want you to enjoy your new friends, teachers, and school.  I want you to be happy and never lose that sparkle in your eye and your thirst for knowledge.  This is only the beginning, and we will have many chapters to open to in the future, but this one is big.   

Enjoy and be happy my sweet baby girl.

Love,

Mom