Kindergarten Survival

You can sense the theme here.  It's kindergarten.  This is my reality now and I am just trying to cope over here.

The first day went okay.  I say okay because even though Audrey was super excited and said she had a great time, Ayden and I struggled.

We began our day with lots of First Day of Kindergarten pictures.  I survived with no tears.  We parked the car and walked up to the school and surprisingly there were no tears.  I was very surprised on how well I was doing, and then it hit me.  Audrey wanted to take a picture with her teacher, and things got real. Like I snapped the pictured, pulled Audrey to the line she was to stand in, and literally tapped out of the situation and very aggressively told Tyler to take over.  The tears were streaming and I could not make them stop, but I did not want her to see me because well that would make things bad, so I hid behind Ayden as I held him.  I am sure there were tons of folks thinking, Lord help that lady, but at that point I did not care.  I was sad and was being consoled with gentle pats on the back by my 3 year old.

I think as Audrey walked off in line into the school, it got me the most.  She didn't even look back at us, she confidently walked into the school and I knew she was going to be fine, but ugh...the tears.  There was a Boo Hoo breakfast that we could go to after the kids went in, but I decided that since I was already a hot mess I just couldn't do it.  After we got to the car, I cried some more and began to bawl once Ayden began singing his own song about how Audrey was going to school and he wanted her to stay home with him.  The kid was literally singing the blues, but at least I know he truly does love her.

Ayden and I sat at the table and he ate some breakfast while I drank some coffee.  He kept asking what was wrong with me because I kept crying.  I seriously ugly cried for at least an hour and a half, but hopefully the crying is over for now.  I mean I don't think I have any tears left!

With all that being said, we all survived.  This will be a transition for us all, but I know Audrey is happy and will enjoy her kindergarten year.  Ayden and I will be adjusting to the change, but before I know it he will be starting preschool up in September and hopefully a new set of emotions will not be overcoming me.  Who am I kidding, I may be crying the next couple weeks, but as everything in life, this to shall pass.

Here's to hoping I can keep it together when I drop her off today!